Adult life is strange—especially when I compare it to my mostly predictable non-adult life. In theory, I like strange—at least when it’s mysterious, interesting. But sometimes strange can be tedious. Tedious strange is looking back on last year’s expectations and wondering how much naiveté you’ve yet to expunge or waking up at 2 a.m. to think of the dishwasher, of all things. Life as a twenty-something has mostly been the latter kind of strange, the kind that only merits an “uh … well I have work to keep doing” or a “hopefully I’ll get back to sleep” kind of response. Tedious strange is feeling adrift from the person who you were at some point convinced that you were but only feeling mildly concerned about said adriftness.
And then there are times when you feel abundant in your current life—even those areas that are rough around the edges. Last night, E. took me to a Mediterranean-Middle Eastern restaurant where our waiter recognized us and welcomed us back. I enjoyed a lentil, chickpea, and potato dish and spent the meal deciphering the various spices—cardamom, clove, and coriander seemed to be the defining notes. Afterwards, we strolled around a used bookstore until it closed around 10. Normally I would be getting ready for bed by then, but I was too busy enjoying this little break from routine and forgetting my adult blues.
If I don’t have a chance for an interesting excursion, new music helps me feel present and refreshed. In his poem “Ashfodel, That Greeny Flower,” William Carlos Williams writes,
It is difficult
to get the news from poems
yet men die miserably every day
of what is found there.
I think each of us has a kind of “poetry” that sustains us—even though its practical value may not be readily apparent. Music, for me, is a vital poetry. I hope you enjoy these songs while your midweek blahs evaporate. xx M.
Laura Palmer (RAC Remix) Bastille
Hunger of the Pine alt-J
Here with Me Susie Suh, Robot Koch
B a noBody SOAK
Keep Him The Legends
Photos: Flowers, porch (Elizabeth Scott Photography)
Each song title contains a link to its source on YouTube.